gone baby gone..

im wonderin when mynitemare will ever end..last nite i still have the same nitemare..tat guy wit his new gurlfren act romanticly n seems very happy lookin at me..n i cry in the end of the corner waitin 4 him to take me back n left tat gurl..but last nite a miracle happen when my dreams turn to someone else come to me at the of the corner n hug me n said i miss u..hurm...n tat guy seems like worried n looks like he wanted to let go tat gals hand but it looks very hard 4 him...he looks like wanted to take me off 4rm the guy arms...i saw his eyes non stp lookin at me till ive lost him...is tat mean there's other guy will set me free 4rm dis nitemare.i hope so...guys pray for me...pray tat will be something tat can change the worst thing into the best thing ever happen to me...amin..

wut do feel when u know ur luv ones slept wit any1else?

huhu~it doesn't mean tat my ex slept wit anyone else...just wanna share bot myfrens...my long distance fren.hehe...wut do feel when ur bf got caught slept wit other gal?....i think u'll cry more than a littre of tears ait?...huhu~ u can imagine how ur luv ones flirtin wit tat gal...how he seduce tat gal..huhu~ i t will become ur nitemare.. thinkin of it.... the most thing u scared of along ur relationship... the most thing u get rid from it...huhu~ when it happens im sure u dunno hoe to handle it... u got caught between love n lost.. u dunno wut choices u gonna make.. either u've to accept it or leave t.. if it happen to u wut u gonna do?...but the weird thing is tat gal who slept wit her bf just now him bot just week...how come it can turn to sleep together...ist the gal whose the bitch o.....huhu~ iduuno how to help myfren... id unno the solution..but the thing i know its really2 hurt..more hurt than u find out ur luv ones have another gf..huhu~

i luv sunshine!

2 weeks later everythin come back to normal.. i thougt everyone deserve a second chance...hehe...everythin was okey..tat guy syg me n i syg him...mmg xde gado2 da...happy sangat...tat tym i really can trust him...we learn how to trust each other n though except our both kekurangan...hehhe..tat tym la syg gle2 kat him til tak ingat kat dunia..bwt everythin je mesti ada tat guy...makan,jalan2,holiday n everythin...we promise da tak check masing2 punye phone kononnye we trust each other....me mmg xde contact dgn mane2 guy pown...after 4 to 6 month happy 2gether one day me tegerak hati nak tgk his phone..den tgk banyak gler gal's name in his phone book as well in his in box..then ada 1 gal's name msg syg2 kat die..i started curious den cepat2 amik tat gal's num phone...tat nyte i kal tat gal n sgt3 tekejut when tat gal said she was his gf too...huhu~ dis the 2nd tym..but i duuno y i can forgive him tat tym..mybe because i was deeply in luv wit him...no do u think im the stupid one o its ryte to give him another chance...i actually tryin to be the good one..kononnya memahami somenone...so tats y tat tym xmara..i thought dgn cara tu bole bwt tat guy berubah...i dunno y myheart keep sayin tat his gonna change one day....but maybe i cannot except the truth tat guy was not in luv wit me...but things change after tat...we both slalu sgt gado...til he came to myhouse one day...tat tym we spend a lot of happy tym 2gether....huhu~....but after his going back to kl..things change..become worst when he meet dis gal..i dunno wut makes he change..he said his confuse....he said he luvs me but its hard to left tat gal...so i think moving on is the best way for me...give him some space wit tat gal...but now...things become more worst when our family hate each other...because wut he did to me was to cruel the my family cannot except him anymore...but things seem like everyone blame me...but the one who make dis mistake is him...now i feeel really badafter all dis past life...its just like a nightmare for me..i dunno how to stop thinking bot dis thing..i hope there's someone will colour up mylife back!!!!!!!

L for Looser!

L is just for looser..huhu~..not for lame, totally not for LOVE, not for like and maybe its for LOST.. in my past life i rally love to describe everythin bot love...i really love to know bot love..how its feell, how it touch how it comes n how u lose it... love it just not a simple word tat u can exactly easily say it.. when ur really feel it than u have the ryte to say it... but now i already stop to find out wut really love is...cause once u got it u'll lose it..trust me...when u lose it then u call it looser..huhu~

Dearie bloggy..

maybe its hard for me to tell eeryone bot mypast life...maybe dis way everyone can knows whos ryte n whose wrong..

either me o him..

either i o u?..

i just want everyone to tell me wut really love is all about..

wut way can make someone luvs u..

though appreciate u the way u are n appreciate u when u r there b side them...

on my 2nd sem in UTM i fell in luv wit dis guy..

deeply crushed on him...

but when it get started to know him i find out many negative things bot him..

is't my fault to trust someone else..

or is't his fault not telling me the truth..

o im just the dumbess person u all ever met...

let me tell u bot him..

not really cute but when he smile he makes ur heart melt..

but his short but for me its cute...

huhu~..

when i started fell in luv wit dis guy...

n officially declared to be his partner it kind really2 intresting...

but then dis guy start control my life..

i can't even spendtym wit my family as well as myfren..

i can't even enjoy mylife..

everythin under his control...

but then i get used to it...

i can follow his flow...

along our relationship i never contact wit other guy, lost contact wit my old frens and stop spendtym wit my own family...

but then..

after 6month couple something tat i really hope didn't happen just happen..

i knew he had other gal in his life..

not for a couple of month or a week.. but along six month couple tats long he wit tat gal too...

then i started ti ignore him..

but dis guy is a really die hard sweet talker...

so den go the next episode...

thE namE is AziE!

my Dearie bloggY..


dis is the 1st blog of mine..n i made dis bloggy juz to release everythin in my mind and share wit everyone my past life..though my new life..on my 1st time wirte on dis blog i juz wanna share bot my own...the outside of me...huhu~

ll azila hani yusup ll

ll 8 July 1987 ll

ll kucHing, Sarawak ll

ll cuRRently in UTm skudai ryte now ll

ll BEACHES i luv it.. ll

ll CHOCOLATE help me relieves my stress.. ll

ll GUYS currently i hate it.. ll

ll LIARS keep urself away 4 rm me.

i really2 hate u.. ll

ll BITCHES stop ruining my happy life.. ll

ll SUNSET im in luv wit u.. ll

ll STARS keep on brigthen my day.. ll

ll RAINBOW dun stop colour up my bored life.. ll

ll SMILE tat makes me the brightess one.. ll

ll MUMMY ur the most person i luv.. ll

ll LOVE i can live witot u.. ll

ll MUSIC i cant live witot u..my life witot u is nothin.. ll

ll CROWDED PLACES im sory i cant be wit u... ll

ll MYFAMILY i'll always luv u.. ll

ll FRENS hope u'll luv me 2.. ll